I know I have been seriously bad at this. Thankfully I am not getting paid to write, though I wish I could, and I’d probably be making only slightly less than I do now…sadly.
I have so much I want to write about. And I’ve had so much I want to write about. I just can’t find a way to formulate what I want to say. I feel that if I start I will go in so many different directions and there will be no end and no purpose. Since the last time I have written I have started my class. Now with MLK day, I have only had two classes. So far I love it. I’m still nervous that I won’t succeed and scared of the potential failure, but I really love being back at school. After struggling through school for most of my life I have really come to love learning. I have such a thirst and desire to absorb so much information, I surprise myself. I am very happy I started with the class I choose and I look forward to continuing.
As for my exercise and healthy lifestyle…wahhhh. I am doing okay. I would still like to run more than I do but I am on a good path. I do very well eating healthy during the week but anytime I go to happy hour or out with my family it’s a slippery slope and I fall all the way down. I don’t know if ill ever be able to improve that. It doesn’t ruin my whole day but those meals are definitely not healthy and consume most of my daily calories. However, I am beginning to accept that this is probably going to be part of my life. I need to make allowances for it and find ways to balance it out. I’m never going to be perfect or live the perfect lifestyle but I can adjust other areas of my life to make my flawed parts just a little better.
I am going to try to write again later this week. There are a few things I want to touch on, social norms, politics, assholes, the usual. I’m trying to be better. One day I will.
The new year started out just as any other new year has; just another day. I kicked it off right this year by going to the Gaylord for big night DC which was awesome and I would highly suggest it. However, come morning, it was just another day.
My resolution this year is to eat clean. Meaning no preservatives, no packaged food, no white flour, ect. So far so good. It isn’t as hard as I thought it would be, but I could just be in that first week bliss before it gets boring.
I think resolutions are funny. I don’t know why it takes the change of a number to make a resolution. Usually the resolutions people make are healthy ones or ones that will improve their life. These resolutions should be made at any point in the year, not just New Year’s Day. It just seems a bit dumb to me that people wait for a day to better themselves. I fall into this trap though, as well. I fall into the trap also of, “oh ill start on Monday because Monday is a new week.” I just don’t understand, that as a society, why we are such big procrastinators.
But whatever I made my resolution like the rest of the world. The other part of my resolution was to take my workouts more seriously and to actually do them. Like the better half of society I have not done that. And like I said before, I will start Monday. Actually, I will hopefully start today.
Anyway, I am excited for a new year despite my lack of enthusiasm for odd numbers. Hopefully I will be going to grad school this year, though I missed the registration date and had a mild mental breakdown. I don’t know why they make things so hard. Post the damn registration close date on the website. Not on my portal crap. And the last time I tried to register it was too early. Now it’s too late. I am quite frustrated with loyola. Especially now that I have to drive to Baltimore to register in person and I have no idea how that is going to go. They probably won’t accept my money or some dumb crap.
After I cried about registration my parents tried to give me that whole learning experience talk. I know everything is a learning experience but that doesn’t mean I want to hear it. Life is a learning experience. I don’t think these experiences need to be so hard though and make you not want to go back to school. Even though I completed my undergrad and registered for my classes then, it was so much easier. My father did mostly everything for me and the online stuff wasn’t as complicated. Now no one is telling me what to do and I don’t know how to find anything out. I guess being 24 means I should put on my big girl pants and suck it up, but I really don’t want to. I just want to take this damn bullshit class and get it over with. All signs are pointing for me not to go to school but I’m still trying. Just let me do it loyola.
Now I’m done with my weekly grad school rant. I am excited for everything else 2013 has to offer. I really hope it is a good year. I also really hope it snows a foot soon.